By now I’m amused at my avoidance at tackling the bigger things, I’ve spent the day staring at what the important things that remain, but no amount of effort would get me through it, so I spent most of the time doing unimportant things. I’m not sure I’ll have it ready for tomorrow, my plan is to go to the library and see what happens.

I don’t want to force things to happen, usually the avoidance gives way to more elegant solutions, but I’m also eager to finish and the conflict is taking it’s toll. Release brings an extra leg of work, and I need to be in the right frame of mind to do it. It seems all this stress is optional, yet I haven’t found a way of avoiding it.

There’s a kid who is hesitating to make the jump off the board and into the pool. I could push him, but I’m waiting to see if he can muster the courage to do it on his own.