Yesterday I agonized over a design decision, yet it’s late in the process, so it’s impossible to question it. Still, the possibility that the alternative was better kept bothering me like a stone in the shoe.
I just had to explore the alternative with a quick mock-up. I saw it was slightly better, but not enough to justify steering the ship through a different course. I kept working. The stone was reduced in size, but it was still bothering me.
I left work throughly beat up, wondering how work is capable of being an unfathomable source of both joy and misery. I slept early and woke up very early, dreading facing the work ahead. I came to work and in quietness committed myself to the chosen path.
With continued work, the alternative faded away. I felt better.